Fantasy: Look at my sweet baby eating sweet potatoes for the very first time while we all sit at the dinner table together talking and smiling!
Reality: At the very moment that I took this photo, Miles was pooping on the living room floor. With a speed that surprised even me, I put the dog outside (because what if – ???) and swooped Miles into the bathroom to finish on the toilet. Then cleaned everything up CHEERFULLY OH SO HAPPILY BECAUSE ACCIDENTS HAPPEN WHEEE!
Fantasy: We went to the library this morning because Spot the Dog was coming to storytime! Miles loves people in character suits so this was going to be great.
Reality: We were 10 minutes early so I followed him around as he lapped the library (walking, not running) 10,000 times. When storytime finally started I led him over and as soon as they started singing “If You’re Happy and You Know It,” he started screaming and slapping me. He was terrified of the kids singing (?!?!)… but even so it made me super angry to get slapped in the face. Followed by humiliated as I dragged him out of the library, and depressed as I stalked back to the car in defeat.
Do you ever read people’s blogs or Facebook statuses and feel like they are just so much happier and more successful than you, having more fun, being better parents? I was listening to a podcast about that phenomenon recently. I’m still not entirely sure how I feel about it. To some degree I think envy is something that comes from within. As someone who blogs about parenting (and Facebooks about it plenty), it’s hard to know where to place things sometimes. On any given day I could tell you about something cute, funny, or exciting (is this bragging?) or something dreadful, annoying, or difficult (is this complaining?)
There are good days and bad days. Obviously. Consider this a non-bragging day…. Lately this is just kicking my BUTT in a huge way. I am tired beyond my wildest imagination. Last week after his day off Mike waved the white flag and told me I have the harder job, by far, between the two of us. I’m doing my best but some days it just doesn’t seem good enough. Luckily tomorrow I get to try again.